equivalence

an interesting thing happened today. an object appeared on the 'to' side of my people list, which was already on the 'from' side of my people list.

i wrote a list on my refrigerator with people's names, and things that i had promised to them, and things i expected to receive from them. it's all been postponed, because i'm having difficulty getting a second job, and that's my biggest emergency right now. anyway, the 'things promised/expected' are sometimes material objects and sometimes intangible things.

i was just musing about somebody and there was something i wanted for that person, something he had needed for a long time now. and i suddenly realized that somebody else had said they would give me that thing on the 'expected to receive' side of my list.

i'm not sure how to describe how i felt. it was a feeling that everything was coming together and working the way i wanted it to. in fact i hadn't even expected that to happen - the same thing on both sides of the list? i had just not bothered to ask myself what to do if that happened. i just imagined that i personally would provide the things i gave, and take the things i received, myself.

it's sort of like playing 'king's quest,' except in real life. bring the bouquet of flowers to somebody and get a basket of goodies in return, or whatever. it probably takes more work to play this 'game' than king's quest though.