honesty

long ago, in the old world, there was a phenomenon known as 'being honest.'

but it can only be done when one's mind has enough silence in it to perform introspection.

harry browne described this phenomenon in 'how i found freedom in an unfree world.' it's a book about creating personal freedom in your own life, in spite of the fact that the world around you is still unfree.

he said that you can prepare for situations you're afraid of, by imagining them before you have to do them in reality. you role-play the scenario in your mind, asking yourself what you're afraid of, imagining that the feared event actually occurs, confronting the worst-case scenario.

he also talked about being extremely honest, with everybody, as often as possible. he said he trained himself for periods of time, during which he observed his own statements looking for accidental or habitual dishonesty, and then looked inside himself for something more true. you don't do this in a judgmental way - you don't 'punish' yourself for being dishonest - but rather, in a calm, self-accepting way you simply look for whatever is true.

when you are afraid of telling the truth about something, you use both of the processes: watching yourself as you automatically, habitually lie, and also, role-playing the feared scenario in which you tell the truth and walk through the consequences, no matter what they are.

in the old world, you did this process entirely alone.

in the new world, no one knows what the real you would have discovered through your introspection. external participants step in to 'guide you in the right direction.' you can't just go ANY direction. you can't just go in the direction of the truth. it is no longer possible to be as truthful and honest as harry browne described. it is no longer possible to know or even to imagine the truth. discovering the truth requires total aloneness and silence. it requires a total absence of external intervention in your thought processes. because that intervention is there, it is no longer possible to really be who you are.

the truth is what you discover when you accept everything, good or bad, socially approved of or socially disapproved of. the truth is when you face reality, no matter how difficult. you see what's there, even if you don't like it. a problem may seem impossible or expensive to fix, but your only chance of fixing it is to really see clearly the actions necessary to fix it.

highly effective psychotronic shields will be expensive in the beginning. so it might be better to build small, permanent, shielded structures instead of selling or giving shields to individual victims. you can let people visit these small houses temporarily or rent them. individuals will still need to buy their own shielding, but a small permanent building should be available too.

in this house of solitude, a person can meditate and introspect to discover what is the truth, without the lies and distortions caused by people 'guiding you in the right direction.' a person can make a plan and prepare for action. a person can role-play scenarios in advance.

i can't be sure if an external shield will block everything - for instance, i don't know if something biological or nanotech is involved in the experiences of mind control victims. if that were the case, you would still have it in or on your body while behind the shield. if there is something biological or nanotech, something microscopic - and someday, in the future, there probably will be if there isn't already - we will still choose life, as well as we can.

i understand that everyone has their limits and everyone is mortal. it will require more research and more resources to fight something microscopic and it will be difficult. it will be harder to fight. it still needs to be done - we don't quit.

but even so, if something microscopic is involved, shielding will still be useful anyway, because the attackers still need to interact with you. you can at least reduce or change the phenomena by using a shield. it may help enough to make life bearable for the victims. so shields are still the very first step, the very highest priority task to do.

so we will make a house of solitude, a safe sleep area. when you enter it, you find that thinking thoughts is a lot easier than you ever imagined. you find that nothing's really wrong with you. you challenge your beliefs, assumptions, and habits, only to discover they weren't really yours. you experience your feelings and emotions, only to see that they are temporary and fleeting, and, once experienced, they pass through you and change into other feelings.

you can't imagine now how easy and natural it is to be a good, healthy person. you discover that you were never really evil or stupid or worthless or whatever they made you believe. you discover that you have amazing honesty, courage, strength, and wisdom - and that you just never used it before. and this can only be known when you are free of external intervention, interruptions, and attacks.

i have reasons why this subject is so important to me today. i'm thinking once again of how difficult it is to have honest relationships with other people when you cannot speak your own words, feel your own feelings, and tell the truth without being 'guided' towards the 'approved truth' instead of the real truth.

i read something about communities the other day. it said that the community around you determines, to some extent, which issues seem important. you then take a stance on those issues. this affects what you think about and where you direct your energy.

this is why people need introspection, why people need time alone. when you're alone, sometimes you see that there are other topics you haven't paid much attention to, topics that nobody else knows about or is thinking about. you see new ideas that just aren't out there anywhere. the popular, well-known issues might then seem less important to you. or you might view them differently.

when someone guides you to say or do certain things, this neglects all of that unknown, unpredicted, uncreated truth - the things nobody else thought of yet, the things nobody else did before.

you don't have to invent an entire scientific or philosophical system of thought. you don't have to create the theory of relativity or a new branch of mathematics. during introspection it is still very, very valuable to create new ideas about everyday, mundane things! you observe something new about yourself, about other people, about animals and living things, or about objects around you. it is those small observations that make life better in little ways for everybody.

i used to be able to do that. i feel very bitter that this mental process has been destroyed.

if i were able to know and tell the truth, i'd tell people exactly what i need in a relationship. i'd know what my goals are. i'd know what i want and why i want it. i'd know which things to compromise about. i'd know what to inform people about. i'd know what to ask for. i'd know what to give.

harry browne said that the only way to find YOUR people is to be as honest and open as possible. only if people can see you, can they find you.