obesity is chemical-induced

the drug-induced trivial fat gain has a cause. i have been looking to figure out what triggered it. i can feel the fat now and it's become uncomfortable. it's been gradually appearing over the past few weeks. as always, it's on my butt. a guy called me 'bubble butt' all the way back in fifth grade, because my butt stuck out just a little bit more than average, and it was noticeable.

i'm still within my range - i weighed myself and i was 128. for the past decade, i've ranged from 120-130 most of the time.

i'm thinking it's one of a couple things.

1. the futon. it has the poison that was in the back of the trunk. i don't know what exactly that poison is. i thought it was tobacco and ephedra, but sometimes, it's behaving more like sjw. actually, it doesn't seem much like ephedra, usually, because it isn't drying out my sinuses very much. it causes head pressure. repeatedly using, and then quitting, transdermal tobacco, might cause weight gain. smokers always say they gain weight when they quit. whatever it is, something awful is all over the futon, even on the plastic cover that i tried to put over it.

2. using, or quitting, transdermal sjw oil (the one i was making and applying deliberately). i've quit sjw in the past, and the withdrawal causes temporary weight gain, but also, it sometimes seems like just USING it causes temporary weight gain. i haven't used it much at all for several weeks, because it interacts with the futon/trunk poison so severely that i feel like my head will explode when i'm lying down. it has been causing very severe problems. the poison got all over my clothes really, really badly, because of lying on the futon. i HAD to stop using it because of the severity of the drug interaction with the futon poison.

3. quitting sjw vapor. the vapors are a slightly different drug with different behavior than the transdermal. i have now withdrawn from that particular plant constituent. i don't know how long withdrawal-induced weight gain will last.

4. i'm reluctant to call this a possible cause, because i don't believe in the 'eating-and-exercise' theory of obesity. however, i haven't been taking walks by the duckpond because it's too cold and i don't have a nontoxic jacket. those walks were always very, very slow - so slow and so quiet that it can't possibly explain why i was able to maintain my weight. i've been sedentary for years, sitting around indoors doing nothing, playing video games, reading the internet, etc, and i hardly exercise at all. exercise ISN'T the reason why i usually stay thin. exercise has nothing to do with my weight, for the most part. i just sit around and do nothing, usually.

5. the bathtub, and whatever is in it. i've been sitting in the bathtub a lot, because it's wintertime, and i need the hot water. i've had some events where sitting in the bathtub has triggered my breasts to hurt. my breasts never hurt before i got the plastic tooth fillings. they have continued to hurt, sometimes very badly, all these months, and even now. according to the theory, the water sits inside of plastic pipes, absorbing plastic, which might be absorbed through my skin when i lie in the bathtub. it could also be copper, or something else in the pipes, or in the water. anyway, i often get contaminated when i lie in the bathtub, because every time i take a shower, the poison from my clothing runs off me and collects on the shower floor. that is the same poison that came from the futon. it causes heart pounding.

6. the absence/withdrawal of the poisons that were on my air mattress. the air mattress was slightly contaminated with something. but it had a vinyl cover on it and it wasn't very toxic, most of the time. the futon is much more toxic (even with its vinyl cover). i don't really feel sure if i was toxic on the air mattress or not. anyway, since i'm not using the air mattress anymore, i no longer am in contact with whatever was on it.

7. touching people who have been associated with pharmaceutical drugs. i hugged mark and i have also hugged sue, whose son was on drugs (until he threatened to commit drug-induced suicide, and they had to get rid of all guns and weapons, and they took him off the drugs because of it). those both happened in the past month. this seems far-fetched, though, and it would have worn off quickly from whatever small amounts i would have gotten from either of them. i think it's the futon, because that's so severe and so unavoidable.


again, ALL of my experiences with temporary weight gain have been obviously triggered by using and quitting drugs. i usually notice the slight changes within the first 24 hours or so after using a drug. but it always goes away. this time, it's been accumulating, because i've had this futon problem which is giving me daily, constant doses. and i don't know exactly what the drug is, either, since there are several constituents of several different plants, in different locations. whatever is in the trunk, it's horrible.

this is frustrating. we don't know how far it will go. my highest was at 145 in college, in a situation where i was drinking glasses of whole milk with every meal, and eating really big meals three times a day (that's the only time when 'eating a lot' was connected with fat gain). i said it before, when i stopped drinking the milk, i lost all of the weight very quickly, and went down to something ranging around 130-135. after that, i came to state college, and started working and living on my own, and i dropped down to the 120s range, where i have been most of the past decade.

somebody said something to me the other day and i don't know if he was a puppet or if he originated the comment. i bought my lunch, and he said 'eating light today, are we?'

the answer is no. i was not 'eating light.' I DO NOT 'DIET,' NOR DO I 'EAT LIGHT.' in my universe, there is no such thing as 'eating light' as a solution for poison-induced fat changes. i was eating the same type of foods that i always eat. the only dietary change that ever made much difference in my weight was quitting milk.

i don't even want to get started, because it would take too long, about how EATING does not cause fat gain. eating and obesity are so unrelated that you might as well say that wearing orange clothing causes weight gain, or reading books written by people named 'frieda,' or driving a mercedes. none of those things cause weight gain, and neither does 'eating.'

obesity is caused by: (in random order, not ordered by importance!)

1. bovine growth hormone

2. pesticides and herbicides

3. drugs

4. vaccine-induced adipose tissue damage (this is only a theory)

5. bottle-feeding infant formula instead of breastfeeding; bottle feeding AT ALL, no matter what kind of milk you put in the bottle, causes babies to drink differently, to drink larger quantities, than they do from the breast, because breasts don't squirt out as much milk as quickly as bottles do. soy formula is the WORST. pasteurized cow's milk is bad, especially if it has rBGH in it. bottle-feeding formula is the strongest theory, the most well-known, the most clearcut and obvious, the strongest cause-and-effect, of all the theories i mentioned so far. it is probably ***THE*** reason for america's obesity crisis, along with pharmaceutical drugs.

6. vegetable oils, hydrogenated oils - i don't know how strongly these cause obesity, but they're bad for you. i know for certain that vegetable oils trigger arthritis, and all-over body pain, from personal experience.

7. plastic, perhaps during prenatal phase? this is only a theory. my plastic fillings caused such severe breast pain, and it's still going on, that i believe plastic fillings could probably screw up a fetus really, really badly, and i intend to drill mine out (even at the expense of losing my teeth) whenever i become pregnant.

8. i'm sure i'll think of a couple other things

EATING FOOD is NOT EVEN ON THAT LIST of the causes of obesity. THAT IS HOW LITTLE IMPORTANCE I PLACE on the theory that 'eating too much causes you to get fat.' that statement is so meaningless that it has no use at all. what causes someone to EAT MORE than some other person? what causes that person to choose a different TYPE of food? there is always some other cause behind that one. but people talk about 'eating too much' as though it's something that happens randomly and spontaneously, for no reason, with no cause, just because you're stupid, or greedy, or self-loathing, or you don't care about yourself, etc, etc - psychological theories are crap.

i'd have to get into a conversation with somebody in order to actually collect the fallacies about eating and obesity, in order to name them and identify them all. basically, ALL of the beliefs about food and fat are totally wrong and meaningless and useless. they explain nothing. they don't explain why i can eat 50 calories, and stay thin, while somebody sitting next to me will eat exactly the same 50 calories, the same type of food, and get fat. you see these huge, overweight, morbidly obese people eating dainty little salads. THEY ARE ***NOT*** EATING TOO MUCH! some of these morbidly obese people EAT LESS THAN I DO! granted, maybe not forever, but for weeks at a time, they diet, but they can't eat that way forever. - but my nutrition teacher pointed something out: whenever you are carrying around a huge amount of weight, you BURN CALORIES just by carrying that weight and expending that effort. imagine if you carried a big sack of potatoes on your back all the time. you are burning calories just by carrying it. their whole bodies are covered in heavy weights. they have to eat lots of calories just to expend the effort of moving around; therefore they USE those calories they eat. fat people exercise more than i do!

this is a topic that angers me greatly, because fat people are so ashamed, and everybody makes fun of them and blames them for the problem, when IT'S NOT THEIR FAULT. it's like making fun of somebody in a wheelchair, or making fun of somebody with AIDS, or making fun of somebody with a birth defect. it's not their fault at all, and they have absolutely no control over it.

over the past few weeks, during the futon poison, i have been very, very exhausted and tired. i haven't been able to do much of anything at all. my (poison-induced) chronic fatigue has been terrible. whatever the poison is, it is doing terrible things to my body. it could even be borax, for all i know, because that was also in the laundry that contaminated the trunk of the car.

i don't want to hear voices telling me that i look GOOD with the extra fat. i also don't want to hear voices telling me i look BAD with the extra fat! they have already been telling me, and they've been nagging and they gave me that nightmare. THERE IS A ***CAUSE*** FOR THIS TEMPORARY FAT GAIN! this has happened to me before.

it will go away, because, like i said, this has happened before, and it has a cause. it's always been temporary and related to the usage/quitting of drugs, and also, drinking milk.