stupid and annoying

i said something yesterday that seemed like a puppet incident. a couple of managers were talking to me about some paperwork, asking if i had done these tests that we're supposed to do. i was pretty sure i had done them a long time ago, if they were talking about the same thing. normally i would have just said that yeah, i remember doing them, or something like that. but i blurted out 'yeah, i remember that they were stupid and annoying,' and all of a sudden, i regretted saying that and felt that it was very disrespectful. i tried to fix it, but didn't really get much of a chance to talk to the person who i seemed to be disrespecting. that just isn't something i normally blurt out. normally i might have said 'i hated those' or 'they took forever' or something like that. but calling them 'stupid and annoying,' directly to the managers who were asking me about them, just didn't feel like my words.

i had an impression that it seemed like i wasn't talking about the paperwork, but instead was calling the manager himself 'stupid and annoying,' which i don't think he is.

those are judgment words. they just didn't feel like they fit into the situation.

i wonder what i'd say if nobody ever put words into my mouth. i might just be 'the strong silent type.' something like that. i probably just wouldn't talk very much.