and that doesn't even go into how anxious i feel about my own body

I have a nice body, in terms of not being too fat or too skinny, being a so-called healthy size. But I have health problems and skin problems and other things that I haven't even written about in the blog, at least not much. So I'm worried about those things. I'm worried that, whatever I am, it's not good enough for him. But then again, I'm not asking him to be monogamous with me. I'm not asking him to stop seeing anyone else. But it feels that way. I'm going to be jealous. I've already been jealous many times.