today

8:54 PM 9/28/10

I didn't go to the bookstore today. Peter needed me to take him on a bunch of errands, and while we were out I started my period and by the time I got home I was cramping so badly I had to take ibuprofen and go to sleep. I don't usually miss my routine trip to Barnes & Noble. It was intended to give people a chance to find me if they had no other way to contact me. The only other time I missed it was when there was a snowstorm.

I'm watching Inkheart. I rented it at Lyken's. Brendan Frazer, or however you spell his name, seems to act like a type Nine.

This lady said books 'love anyone who opens them.' I understand that. The book never rejects you. It doesn't tell you that you're not good enough to read it. It doesn't tell you that the characters would never like you and would never be your friends in real life.

This 'type Nine' adventure fantasy reminds me of the other movie I saw a while back, Stardust. It's a 'not really scary' fantasy movie. The 'bad guys' are sort of wimpy and silly. They're almost lovable.

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I deleted my facebook account so that I wouldn't be talking to Kayla and Curtis and Carrie anymore. None of them would block me. Carrie said that Kayla got upset after I emailed her. She thinks that I am actually giving Curtis money, but actually, that isn't happening. I gave C&C my other email address. I just won't see them on facebook. It's best if I don't know what's going on in his life so that I won't get upset and try to get involved.

I don't really want to use Facebook anyway. I'm not using it for *real* social networking.

I don't know of any social networking sites where it's easy to search for people based on their interests. Like 'anarchism' or whatever. All the social networking sites are full of clutter, like myspace, where people fill their pages with so much junk that the page won't load. (When I very briefly saw Curtis's page, I liked it, he had a beautiful background with trees silhouetted against the sunset sky and a crow - from what I remember. He had soft pornographic pictures and videos - I never saw the whole thing because I'm on dialup and I always had to stop it from loading.)

I like plentyoffish because it's a basic html site with no clutter, but it isn't really a 'social networking site' and you still can't easily search for people's interests. You can, kind of, but it's hard to do. And people aren't encouraged to write their interests much.

I had to stop looking at Curtis's pictures when he won't see me in real life.

I'm not really 'using' facebook anyway. 'Using' the site would mean, actually social networking and using it to inform people about important things that I'm doing. I can't even use it to look for local libertarians. Instead, I get puppet words for my status updates.