A crazy person's craziness isn't the problem...

8:18 AM 4/28/11

When they woke me up this morning they were talking about Se and Si, extraverted and introverted sensing. I had mentioned that one of the upper level managers at work seemed to be weak at introverted sensing, because we were having a severe ergonomic problem. I'm not sure which type he is, but - and this wasn't just one incident, it was one of several - we bought a new cooler up at the front counter, and, while it's nice to have a new cooler, they moved some other things around to make room for it. Except it didn't really make room, and not only that, but it seems that making room was unnecessary, and worse than leaving it the way it was originally.

Now there are some pieces of equipment where 1. a short person can just barely reach the McFlurry topping dispensers, and 2. only very skinny people can put shake mix in the shake machine, and 3. the McFlurry toppings are very likely to get knocked over, as they are just sitting on something without being bolted down the way they used to be. I think it was better the way it was before, and we would have been able to get around the cooler. I think the McFlurry toppings are the most easily moved and fixed.

But a couple of people have mentioned it and complained, and when the person responded to their complaints, it seemed that the person didn't have sympathy for the problem... so when I heard that story I wondered if Si was involved, as they seemed to have other priorities besides whether someone could comfortably use the equipment or not.

So they were talking about that when they woke me up this morning; they also mentioned sick building syndrome, which I am already aware of; they also mentioned Se, extraverted sensing, where, if you have a weakness in Se, then, if someone chases you off your territory, you say something along the lines of, 'Oh well, I didn't really want to be there anyway.' That seems to be what happened with Rick, as I had emailed him the other day and tried to tell him what to do about the problem he is having with me, and he merely said that he wasn't going to be at the forum very much anyway, and that he would be ignoring my emails. If I were in control of myself, I would be able to simply stop; but I am not the one choosing to do these things, and I am not the one choosing to obsess about him; because of that, I am not really able to stop just because I want to, but instead, will be likely to continue emailing him.

A moderator talked with me at the forum, and I said that I would not do any more personally directed comments at him or forum blogs about him.

I saved my files of the conversation - they were 'web archive' files and I checked them just now to see that they actually saved. I'm going to see what I can edit. I wasn't sure last night what parts of my comments I would be able to change but I will look at that now.

Most of the world will view this as a crazy person's craziness being responsible for the problem. From my point of view, this is a perfectly healthy person - well, not physically healthy - a chemical sensitive person with chronic fatigue and chemical-induced mood changes - but, mentally healthy - A mentally healthy person who is being controlled by an external attacker, and no one believes me, and no one can do anything about it.